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Monday, August 30, 2010

3:08 PM

A love became hatred.
What more can I say?
Guys are choosy no?
No matter how I chase you back, (which is rarely to see me being so thick face k)
you don't seem to care about it.
I know I'm wrong.
Everything was a lie.
But I believe everything happens for a reason.

Hopefully, I don't give up easily again this time. :/
Unless, there's someone to brainwash me.

A post from my Jie -

Okay, this paragraph goes out to my beloved
Janice mei. I know something had been troubling
you recently based on your blog. But fret not. You
still have me to talk to. Remember, me! I know
something went wrong but you don't seem to want
to talk about it eh? Do tell me via facebook if u want
to msn me ;D Love yah.

Same old sentence, I do wish to recover quickly! (:

- Thanks alot, I really need a talk. But it's not the time now, wait till I'm feeling better k? Yes, I agree. Same old sentence :)

3:54 AM

Why, whats wrong with that? Isn't it normal if girls went mad whenever guys don't accompany them much? This shows that the girl wants to spend more time with him. Don't they?

Secondly, a girl asked, "do you still want to be with me?" & she gave him some time to think about it. If the guy still needs to think, I bet he's no use at all, this shows that he doesn't love the girl anymore. Am I right? Absolutely.

Thirdly, as a friend of mine said, 'never expect anything from a girl.' Guys just don't understand. Another friend of mine said, "whenever a girl pushes a guy away, she wanted to see whether he will stick to her again, this is called love." I agree.

- Just realised today was Art4 exam, I've brought loads of books to school. Man -_-" after the exam, went to See Mui's house nap awhile before the Malay oral. Gosh, I answered them by words but not sentences. I guess I'm going to fail it again. Cried around 2+ .. Due to my bad situation(Malay Oral & a msg). Person who're involved should know what am I talking about here.

After the oral, See Mui brought me to Kelly's house. She's not at home -_- great, walked to Toppy saloon to find her. Waiting for her panicure her nails, cut her hair. Saw my dad, scam credit first! Wahahaha! And etc etc. Lazy blog le. D:

Saturday, August 28, 2010

7:33 PM

Smiley! =D

On Friday, skipped tuition cause am exhausted, not sure why =/
Went to KB by bus, so so tired already. Bought some Tees. Used loads of $$. Going bankrupt again. Jia Wen and I went to Jess house, take back my pyjamas(PINK).

Kenneth & Jia Wen came to my house to stay overnight. It's like .. been a long time, no one ever came to my house to sleepover. Anyway, mom went to visit Perth with her friend on Thursday eve. We decide to not stay up till the next day. But the plan failed, they put aeroplane on me. Jia Wen fall asleep first, while me & Kenneth still full awake. Surf the net to let me stay awake =D

Until around 3, I straight away *dup* on the bed & zZzZz while Kenneth sleep later an hour than me. They TJL, woke up earlier than me, chit chatting there, woke me up. -_- it's 8 already. We head for breakfast and got prepared while waiting for Baby to come fetch us to go Bandar.

Oh, I forgot to mention about that night. Kenneth went into the kitchen, searching for the dustbin. LOL. He was finding the stand for the dustbin, actually it was a container for the rice. Tsk tsk, too modern issit? HAHA!

Back to the topic. Hmm. Matt gor followed us too. At Bandar, Jia Wen & I went to shop in the Mall, left the guys alone. Hmph! They wont follow either. Noob. Tsk. After that, "WE" went to find "THEM". They bought tickets for movies already -_- they chosen the 'Grown Ups'. I thought it's interesting though, but not what I expected. Some part is funny but idk why am not laughing. LOL. Well, I dont even know which is the pic cover of the movie -_- anyhow find one.

After movie, ate half lunch, half dinner =x
I ordered Fish & chips @ Foodcourt :D

Sigh. While waiting for Aries and MJ, we did nothing at all. Noob. Watching lakos moving up the escalator. Zzz. Retarded k. I asked Jia Wen to go centrepoint. Let them alone. Fed up of these guys. They wont follow us either. So we shopped slowly in the Metoyou bear's shop. Baby kept msg where are we. While we are going back to the Mall, Baby asked to wait for them, they're at Hairock. I was like wtf. Nearly replied "go hell la". But then, I calmed myself. They asked where are we, yet asked us to wait. Wtf la.

Nvm. When we almost leave the mall, Baby went to buy something? Made us wait outside for few minutes. Wtf. So we went in and shop again while he's back. Hmph. Next, Kenneth went to buy something again when we're done. Wtf k. Jia Wen said, "who's next? Matt?" Zzzz. That made us frustrated enough. I rather stay at home, seriously. Going out with them is like going out with Jia Wen only.

Then, we're off to Empire hotel. It was getting even worst, I can say. Totally horrible day to date. If I wasn't calm enough, I would have broke up. -_- I'm not joking.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

4:37 AM

My current profile picture in Facebook :D

Right after school dismiss, followed See Mui, Kenneth & Brian to Sui Hing. They ordered Paos while I am the only one who ordered Fried Mee. They were shocked when I ordered it, cause they were rush in time to go back to school, in order to get ready for their Malay orals. I was like wtf, okay I was totally forgotten about it. So I decided to wait for Kelly but it takes too long, See Mui fetch them; they went back to school. I walked to Kelly's house alone. She requested me to purchase a 3G credit for her. While I reached her house, changed clothes, etc. We gossip until around 1:30pm. She bought some stuffs, I bought nothing -.-

Wanted to buy Pelikan colour pencils but I forgot. Haha, great. Nevermind, tomorrow imma going out again. Maybe could take a quick photo for the school mags too. Or maybe on Monday afternoon? Hmmm. Speaking about Monday, I had my Malay oral on that day! Oh-no! I had no confidence on Malay. Honestly.

We were runding in Wywy's restaurant, they asked us to go out to settle the case. Though, I was not involved, but a friend of mine asked me to accompany her. I've also wanted to know what's going on actually. That girl *I did not mention names* had no sense of humour, no offense. I'm serious. No one actually likes her, I meant her attitude, don't get me wrong. Even her fcuk face.

Rudny was effing funny. Annie too. Rudny spark that girl, copying every sentence she said. *Oh, I forgot about it too. Oh, I won't say sorry too.* Hahahaha. I wondered, if she had forgotten then why her mom remembers it? Annie said it right. Not only a few of us whom dislikes her, everyone does.

To my readers, for your information, I'm not being a racist here or should I say *we?* am just briefly explaining what's happening today. Anyway, it's ridiculous when you've done something wrong & you don't want to admit it or apologize to the person. This kind of person cannot be fucked. :)

After that I went for my English tuition @CFBT. I was so exhausted, not sure why. Usually I'm super hyper, I lost my appetites. I'm choosy for food nowadays. Sigh. Getting skinnier like a skeleton. Wait, I'm one of em already xD

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

6:40 AM

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

6:01 AM

Shop Spot's 2nd batch pre-order had just reopened, closing date will be on 4th September at 3PM. I know it takes too long, due to my mom is going overseas so no one helps me to order at the moment -_-

Publishing some of the accessories here, I love it too.

Don't you think it's pretty? XD

Monday, August 23, 2010

2:12 AM

Awww, I effing adore cute & fluffy puppies ♥ ♥ .. I used to own a puppy when I was young at my old house, I still remember how I used to call him, FIFI =D
He's the only puppy that I love, ♥ eventhough, he's just an ordinary dog, but special in someways. He looks like the 101 dalmation, he got a black spot on his left eyes, if I'm not mistaken :C unfortunately, one day, he gotten food poison !! Passed away just like that .. Sadlife.

I wish to have one of these though ..

And, a very good example could be .. Claudia's

My mom knew that, every year during CNY, I will visit her house, the first thing I do is to play with her puppy!! XD hohooho!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

5:10 AM

I'm so gonna share these videos to you guys! A friend of mine send me these links, too bad she can't watch it. Effing funny =D

The Lady Gaga - mychonny's channel

Is Justin Bieber a gay?

Old people are funny. LOL I admired the part in 1:00 LOL so wtf lor. Laughin' my arse off man.

Chinese New Year - In this video, he's quite soi lor. Hahahaha.
Can anyone tell me whats the song? Hahahaha.

Asian and White people - I've watched this video in somewhere before.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

5:59 PM

Facebook is NOT a menace, I agree! =D
There was an English debate. It was quite interesting though, the way they speak, the way they react, the way they argued, one word - amazing! I enjoyed watching during the debate.

The plan had been changed, we went to Dickson's house to celebrate it. The cupcake was effing hard like stones but the taste was good, it would be nicer if it's soft. I planned to go home at 12 midnight, but Baby's mom scolded him lalalala ~ so we all (Kenneth, Jia Wen & Baby) went home around 8. I think. Hmph.

It's our 100th day
♥
Baby told me that, I din even know. Hehe. =x

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

5:46 PM

Holidays! Weeeee! Not sure whether this evening there's English class. Hopefully there is cause I've missed 2classes, if this time there ain't classes, it would be 3classes total up. Wasted. I'm effing bored to the max k. Mom went to Miri, wish to follow though. Too bad, hadn't got my passport yet.

Something just flashed up in my mind, immensely awkward. I was wondering whose gonna be my step father in the future? Omg. Angmohs aka orang putih keep appear in my mind. Hahahaha! He drove us to school, etc. Thats so 'not' gonna happen. But before it is possible. Now? I dont think so. Cause I realised they're playing my mom's heart. A married angmoh, who had kids loved my mom. I'm like wtf.

I don't feels like going to school on Saturday. But whats the point staying at home? Nothing to do too. I bet there's not much people attending on that day. Trying to escape Library lesson LOL. I'm so not going to bring that storybook again yo. Mr. Matthew asked us to read it out loud in the class. Embarrasing k. Thanks to Kenneth, he took the book out from his bag. Don't blame me eventhough the book belongs to me! After school dismiss, might go to town, wash my hair in saloon(if there's time), change clothes, buy stuffs & order food with Baby, Jia Wen, Kenneth. Then will be going to Angel's house, celebrating her advance b'day! Hope to have loads of fun on that day. Gotta be staying out till late night :x

Spelling compettition had came to the finals. Farah had won in the final. It's time for them to compete with the other classes. Can't wait to watch who is going to be the spelling champion xD
Oh & yesterday webcamed with Vivian. She hasn't change yet, still the same. My lame girl :D

Forever your my boy,
Forever be my world,
You are the only one.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

6:21 AM

Oh-no! No moon for today. Sad.

Baby found these lame pics. Very cb de lo the first one xD

HAHA stupid sia. zxc.

I felt nausea after seeing this pic, fear of nuggets le. HAHA. Phobianuggets! :P

Rawr!

Omg

Omg

My fave pic! =D

Monday, August 9, 2010

4:49 AM

~~Just a random update to cover up the previous posts XD~~

Saturday, August 7, 2010

10:52 PM

SEE MUI DARED ME.

Here's the prove -_-

Tsk tsk, korek hidung somemore wawawa ~

Dinner @OGDC.

What were they up to?

Playing cards XD

Lame game muahahaha! Fed up!

My baby is so cute right XD

I've just bought it today! Love it! Hahaha! Still left afew $ in my audi D:

Thursday, August 5, 2010

5:46 AM

This was taken during English tuition :D
We've learnt punctuations just then.

It was a hectic week that I never realised it's Thursday today. This is going way too fast. I love it xD

I used to get anxious whenever I'm talking to a 'newbie' or an 'un-close peeps;strangers'. Today's class was quite fun, the boys get to speak and make fun during the lesson.

Was betraying Domo nowadays. Sadlife for him D:

Tomorrow's extra class gonna be bored to death. Geog + POA = (N). Two hours of lesson. Home. Tuition. OH EM GEE.

Saturday's gonna be a funn day! Lalalalala ~

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

11:57 PM

Like it? Click here to go Shop Spot! Just trying to adv. -_- am lazy to add ppl yo! These are pre-orders item, closing date to place your order is on 7/8/10 saturday. Prolly the stocks will arrived in after 2-3weeks approximately from Saturday. Prices noted there had been included shipping & taxes.

Monday, August 2, 2010

4:39 AM

I was damn bored, so yeah. Editted a picture of us, uploaded in FB. So random.

Currently drinking chrysanthemum tea, just finshed eating my pear. Baby copycat me eating pear & drink Lemon Tea!

02.08.10, happy 3rd monthsary to us! ♥ ♥ :3

*Set an alarm at 00:00, I fell asleep at around 10+ or 11+, when the clock strikes 00:00, the alarm rang, I'm awake. It hurts my ears though I still fell back asleep at that time. I saw Jun di's msg, I didn't bother to reply. It's exp k! Sorry. Wait till I've got my Sg's line ba. Furthermore, I didn't even send that greetings msg to Baby! Holy cow. Around 1, Baby greets me. Oh-no! Fell back asleep again. I just don't know why I can't reply midnight's msg nowadays. Lol. Friggin awkward.* So I sent it during the dawn. Whew.

I'm still sick! Sore throat, coughs, flu never ends. I really hate this feeling. Silly, who doesn't? That retarded Kenneth din came to school, fever somemore. Tsk tsk. Bored. No one to share stories/ gossip with :D

Joined Kim, Dickson, Peter after school. Went to town, since Dickson wants to take a look for a new phone. So we accompanied him, I finally changed my phone's screen protector. Sibeh happy mode. The seller kept sticking the protector sheet onto my phone. Unfortunately, he kept doing it unsuccesfully. He did it when he's using the 3rd piece. I wonder if he had to pay those two? Since he damaged it already. Sad.

We had spelling competition during our English lesson. I giggled at the last word, it was extremely easy. "Dolphin". I've got 9/10 though. Damn that word ; Aggressive. I spelled it as 'Aggresive'. Missed out a letter S! I regretted for not joining. I thought it would be hard! Who knows ~

Oh, almost forgot to share this with everyone. It's hard to understand when you read it by yourself. Now try reading it. Enjoy.

The spell checker

Eye half a spelling chequer

It came with my pea sea

It plainly marcs four my revue

Miss steaks that eye kin knot sea

Eye strikes a key and type a word

And weight four it to say

Weather eye is wrong oar write

It shows me strait a weigh

As soon as a mist ache is maid

It nose bee fore too long

And I can put the air or rite

Its rare lea Eva wrong

Eye half rung this poem threw it

I'm shore your pleased to no

Its letter purr fact owl the weigh

My chequer told me sew

I have a spelling checker

It came with my PC

It plainly marks for my review

Mistakes that I cannot see

I strikes a key and type a word

And wait for it to say

Whether I is right or wrong

It shows me straight away

As soon as a mistake is made

It knows before too long

And I can put there all right

Its rarely ever wrong

I have ran this poem through it

I'm sure you're pleased to know

Its rather perfect all the way

My checker told me so

Amazing no? Hahaha, I laughed when my tutor read it for us. Anyway, I've done my English project! Too simple. I bind it already, what to do? Atleast I did :/

I'm gonna make this post in 600 words! Gonna prove it to Baby >: /

Does this count as 600 words already? Cause it's nearly 9pm now. Had not packed my school bag yet. I'm sure my domokun is bored to death at home without me (A).

I've learnt how to save money after reading the note that Jess had tagged me from FB. Yup, I've decided to do the same. Deposit money whenever I'm happy. I did it today, just $2.00 lawl.

Here's the story.

Life's about correcting mistakes

Jocelyn married William this day. At the end of the wedding party, Jocelyn's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount. Mother: 'Jocelyn, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with William. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.' Jocelyn shared this with William when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made. This was what they did after certain time: - 7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for William after marriage- 1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Jocelyn- 20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Bali- 15 Apr: $2000, Jocelyn got pregnant- 1 Jun: $1000, William got promoted .... And so on... However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world.... No more love...Kind of typical nowadays, huh?One day Jocelyn talked to her Mother: 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!' Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.'Jocelyn thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account. While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home. When she was home, she handed the passbook to William, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce. The next day, William gave the passbook back to Jocelyn. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happiness you've brought me.' They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe. Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone thru all the good years in their life. "When you fall, don't see the place where you fell, instead see the place from where you slipped. Life is about correcting mistakes."