Wednesday, September 1, 2010
3:47 AM
31.08.2010, Elaine's 18th birthday!
My routine on that day ;
Morning - drank few spoon of nestum, went to school, cried *for some reasons*, had English school's oral practice. When its Kenneth's turn, he reads the passage, the actual sentence was :
"Hey! Can you play somewhere else?!"
He read it as, "Hey! Can you play someone else?!" LMFAO.
Afternoon - walked to town with Kenneth and Brian. While waiting for Kelly, we went to a mobile shop nearby Ta Hua's restaurant but it was full so we went to WYWY's restaurant for lunch. Kelly treat me Milo shake. Heh, didn't eat. No appetite at all.
Shop awhile then off to Kelly's house. All of us LAI DIAN. Well, especially me. As for Kenneth, he kept laugh non-stop cause of my lameness xD
I drew this .. Brian add that arrow. Lol. Then he drew another one. We're bored k. Depressed too.
Aww. Hahahahahahaha. Then I went to add a line in the centre just like a broken heart! :p
Skipped tuition, postponed it again with Kelly. Waiting for Niu Qin to come pick me home change prom dress lor ~ Matthew Kong, Niu Qin, Kenneth, Hwa Hui, Kelly & I squeezed into Niu Qin's car. Hahahha. They waited for me @my house. Didn't make up then go out in a hurry. Off to Bucaneer. Met Rudny, Yi Siang(Daddie), Steve, Annie, Sandy, Johnson, Chee Wee, Ah Han, See Mui & her bro. Others didn't see lor. Hahha. Went home early anyway.
HAHAHAHA. Okay, I met my long lost friend. When I went home, he terus add my FB. Then next morning he terus inbox me. -_-
Read what he said! HAHAHAHA! I wanna vomit liao lor.
XXXX SAID September 1 at 2:19pm
Haha ur not xiao qi gui jiu can liao! sorry late reply! sleeping jus now! xP btw wat u doing? :P and also! last night your so beutiful! :P
XXXX SAID September 1 at 6:57pm
haha...beautiful lar... =X i almost want daydreaming liao! just now u come downstair from ur house! xD
HAHAHA. I didnt know he change till like this liao HAHAHAHA.Monday, August 30, 2010
3:08 PM
A love became hatred.
What more can I say?
Guys are choosy no?
No matter how I chase you back, (which is rarely to see me being so thick face k)
you don't seem to care about it.
I know I'm wrong.
Everything was a lie.
But I believe everything happens for a reason.
Hopefully, I don't give up easily again this time. :/
Unless, there's someone to brainwash me.
A post from my Jie -
Okay, this paragraph goes out to my beloved
Janice mei. I know something had been troubling
you recently based on your blog. But fret not. You
still have me to talk to. Remember, me! I know
something went wrong but you don't seem to want
to talk about it eh? Do tell me via facebook if u want
to msn me ;D Love yah.
Same old sentence, I do wish to recover quickly! (:
- Thanks alot, I really need a talk. But it's not the time now, wait till I'm feeling better k? Yes, I agree. Same old sentence :)3:54 AM
Why, whats wrong with that? Isn't it normal if girls went mad whenever guys don't accompany them much? This shows that the girl wants to spend more time with him. Don't they?
Secondly, a girl asked, "do you still want to be with me?" & she gave him some time to think about it. If the guy still needs to think, I bet he's no use at all, this shows that he doesn't love the girl anymore. Am I right? Absolutely.
Thirdly, as a friend of mine said, 'never expect anything from a girl.' Guys just don't understand. Another friend of mine said, "whenever a girl pushes a guy away, she wanted to see whether he will stick to her again, this is called love." I agree.
- Just realised today was Art4 exam, I've brought loads of books to school. Man -_-" after the exam, went to See Mui's house nap awhile before the Malay oral. Gosh, I answered them by words but not sentences. I guess I'm going to fail it again. Cried around 2+ .. Due to my bad situation(Malay Oral & a msg). Person who're involved should know what am I talking about here.
After the oral, See Mui brought me to Kelly's house. She's not at home -_- great, walked to Toppy saloon to find her. Waiting for her panicure her nails, cut her hair. Saw my dad, scam credit first! Wahahaha! And etc etc. Lazy blog le. D:Saturday, August 28, 2010
7:33 PM
Smiley! =D
On Friday, skipped tuition cause am exhausted, not sure why =/
Went to KB by bus, so so tired already. Bought some Tees. Used loads of $$. Going bankrupt again. Jia Wen and I went to Jess house, take back my pyjamas(PINK).
Kenneth & Jia Wen came to my house to stay overnight. It's like .. been a long time, no one ever came to my house to sleepover. Anyway, mom went to visit Perth with her friend on Thursday eve. We decide to not stay up till the next day. But the plan failed, they put aeroplane on me. Jia Wen fall asleep first, while me & Kenneth still full awake. Surf the net to let me stay awake =D
Until around 3, I straight away *dup* on the bed & zZzZz while Kenneth sleep later an hour than me. They TJL, woke up earlier than me, chit chatting there, woke me up. -_- it's 8 already. We head for breakfast and got prepared while waiting for Baby to come fetch us to go Bandar.
Oh, I forgot to mention about that night. Kenneth went into the kitchen, searching for the dustbin. LOL. He was finding the stand for the dustbin, actually it was a container for the rice. Tsk tsk, too modern issit? HAHA!
Back to the topic. Hmm. Matt gor followed us too. At Bandar, Jia Wen & I went to shop in the Mall, left the guys alone. Hmph! They wont follow either. Noob. Tsk. After that, "WE" went to find "THEM". They bought tickets for movies already -_- they chosen the 'Grown Ups'. I thought it's interesting though, but not what I expected. Some part is funny but idk why am not laughing. LOL. Well, I dont even know which is the pic cover of the movie -_- anyhow find one.
After movie, ate half lunch, half dinner =x
I ordered Fish & chips @ Foodcourt :D
Sigh. While waiting for Aries and MJ, we did nothing at all. Noob. Watching lakos moving up the escalator. Zzz. Retarded k. I asked Jia Wen to go centrepoint. Let them alone. Fed up of these guys. They wont follow us either. So we shopped slowly in the Metoyou bear's shop. Baby kept msg where are we. While we are going back to the Mall, Baby asked to wait for them, they're at Hairock. I was like wtf. Nearly replied "go hell la". But then, I calmed myself. They asked where are we, yet asked us to wait. Wtf la.
Nvm. When we almost leave the mall, Baby went to buy something? Made us wait outside for few minutes. Wtf. So we went in and shop again while he's back. Hmph. Next, Kenneth went to buy something again when we're done. Wtf k. Jia Wen said, "who's next? Matt?" Zzzz. That made us frustrated enough. I rather stay at home, seriously. Going out with them is like going out with Jia Wen only.
Then, we're off to Empire hotel. It was getting even worst, I can say. Totally horrible day to date. If I wasn't calm enough, I would have broke up. -_- I'm not joking.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
4:37 AM
My current profile picture in Facebook :D
Right after school dismiss, followed See Mui, Kenneth & Brian to Sui Hing. They ordered Paos while I am the only one who ordered Fried Mee. They were shocked when I ordered it, cause they were rush in time to go back to school, in order to get ready for their Malay orals. I was like wtf, okay I was totally forgotten about it. So I decided to wait for Kelly but it takes too long, See Mui fetch them; they went back to school. I walked to Kelly's house alone. She requested me to purchase a 3G credit for her. While I reached her house, changed clothes, etc. We gossip until around 1:30pm. She bought some stuffs, I bought nothing -.-
Wanted to buy Pelikan colour pencils but I forgot. Haha, great. Nevermind, tomorrow imma going out again. Maybe could take a quick photo for the school mags too. Or maybe on Monday afternoon? Hmmm. Speaking about Monday, I had my Malay oral on that day! Oh-no! I had no confidence on Malay. Honestly.
We were runding in Wywy's restaurant, they asked us to go out to settle the case. Though, I was not involved, but a friend of mine asked me to accompany her. I've also wanted to know what's going on actually. That girl *I did not mention names* had no sense of humour, no offense. I'm serious. No one actually likes her, I meant her attitude, don't get me wrong. Even her fcuk face.
Rudny was effing funny. Annie too. Rudny spark that girl, copying every sentence she said. *Oh, I forgot about it too. Oh, I won't say sorry too.* Hahahaha. I wondered, if she had forgotten then why her mom remembers it? Annie said it right. Not only a few of us whom dislikes her, everyone does.
To my readers, for your information, I'm not being a racist here or should I say *we?* am just briefly explaining what's happening today. Anyway, it's ridiculous when you've done something wrong & you don't want to admit it or apologize to the person. This kind of person cannot be fucked. :)
After that I went for my English tuition @CFBT. I was so exhausted, not sure why. Usually I'm super hyper, I lost my appetites. I'm choosy for food nowadays. Sigh. Getting skinnier like a skeleton. Wait, I'm one of em already xDWednesday, August 25, 2010
6:40 AM
MARRIAGE
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.
So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.
By Stephanie HalmiltonTuesday, August 24, 2010
6:01 AM
Shop Spot's 2nd batch pre-order had just reopened, closing date will be on 4th September at 3PM. I know it takes too long, due to my mom is going overseas so no one helps me to order at the moment -_-
Publishing some of the accessories here, I love it too.
Don't you think it's pretty? XD
